Oh how I love Death Cab for Cutie.  Happy New Years everyone! <3

Late night musings

Soooo lately I've been trying to figure out where I want to go in life... And I gotta say, it isn't reaaaally something I've ever put all that much thought into... But seriously, there are a lot of things I could do... maybe get a doctorate, spend the rest of my life FOR SCIENCE, doing research-y things  (You gotta admit, Dr. Jessie Scott sounds pretty damn cool.).  Travel the world... hide out in a field station observing some animal for months on end... chill in a lab microscoping things and mixing things and looking at DNA... running all the experiments.  Live on a boat, or an RV.  Go skydiving, base jumping, rock climbing, live on a mountain, hang gliding, scuba diving...

Or with a really cute family of my own...

For some reason I can't seem to combine the two in my mind... adventure and a family.  It just doesn't work.  It keeps ending up being family OR adventure.  Cute little family OR living day by day out of an RV seeing the country.  Adorable little family life OR living on a boat for a few months tracking whales and awakening each morning to the sunrise over the ocean...

I don't understand why these two perfectly wonderful futures don't combine in my mind.  Why it can't seem to work out like The Wild Thornberries...  Maybe it just doesn't seem right to said future kid... to be perpetually on the move, never set in one place, no solid home, friends, school, etc.  But I honestly don't know that I ever see myself settling down in one place for too long...

Sometimes I feel like a family would just be another thing getting in the way of my adventure... more mouths to feed, more plane tickets to buy, more things to worry about in this crazy world...  Maybe the problem is I care too much...

But again, how adorable would a kid be who grew up on Matt and Kim and The Little Prince and nights stargazing and adventuring around like they lived in The Wild Thornberries?  A kid who grew up on science...

Idk... I still don't know where I stand on the whole thing.  I think part of me is just terrified of losing the freedom I have of being able to do WHATEVER the hell I want, and it not severely affecting anyone in such a way that it could ruin their entire future...

But this is an awful lot of worrying for something that's years and years in the future.  No way I'd be settling down right now and thinking about a family... that's just absolutely absurd.  I've got a great good many years of adventure ahead of me before anyone could even possibly get me to stay in one spot for an extended period of time.

Something about being stuck in one place just terrifies me.

.... that moment where you find yourself dancing around to Foster the People in Converse shoes and recognize you're slipping into hipsterdom....

Also when your parents switch internet providers and you can't get onto the email that you use for everything... not entirely sure what this means for everything I use THROUGH that email account; i.e. facebook, etsy, amazon, this blog, etc etc etc

Should be interesting...

so many random thoughts rambling around my head that my brain feels empty...

I think I need to get back into reading books... I feel like they actually increase knowledge while providing entertainment, unlike TV shows...

also my pandora station hates me all of a sudden. it was filled with adorable indie songs and now its just... not.

and who decided it was a cool thing to make textbooks so expensive when everything else regarding school is so expensive? this is just mean spirited at this point.

I think I could also use a beach day... because its been too long.

Also my attempt at making song lyric jewelry failed more or less horribly in that the ink bled everywhere into the superglue and thus making everything weird colored...

Also happy christmas eve to my readers.  This christmas should be interesting in that EVERYONE was pestering me for gift ideas and I didn't know what to tell ANY of them because I'm really content with everything... I'm so happy I get to see my cousins tomorrow <3

I think my attention span is disappearing...

I've also just determined that school took the fun outta reading...

Everything is elipses... ellipses? yep. spellcheck likes ellipses... except now i'm apparently spelling spellcheck wrong so that's cool...

OH. MY GOD. FLORENCE AND THE MACHINE. Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air, I know I can count on you. Sometimes I feel like saying, "Lord I just don't care." but you've got the love I need to see me through.


the other day I couldn't remember the phrase "wasting energy" so I settled on the idea that the light that was on that no one was using was "destroying the universe." a valid substitute in any book.


.... i never kept up with that picture a day thing... and now I'm a little sad I failed...

its probably bedtime now seeing as i'm gonna be rudely awoken tomorrow to clean then sit around and wait to go to my cousin's house...

random train of thoughts is random...


I need more facts.

This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years. - Death Cab for Cutie

That moment when you realize a person on etsy sells customizable song lyrics necklaces and promptly proceed to go broke.