Lately I've been thinking a smidge too much about the future. And honestly also I've been feeling kind of bad that I'm NEVER home and I spend more time with my friends than I do with my family... >___> They legitimately rarely see me... and it kind of hit me that they do everything so that me and chris and liv have all the opportunities we could want in life... I don't know how I never noticed that before.
I'm hoping to try and graduate college at least a semester early, so that there will hopefully be money left for chris and liv to go to college or do whatever it is they want to do with their futures... Everything in this world is too damn expensive... Regardless, I think I'm going to try and set some money aside in a CD and hope for the best with that...
I'm also really hoping that I can manage to find and internship with a biology company so that I have something I love doing once I get out of college, a job, and then I hear tale that sometimes companies will pay for your grad school, which would be wonderful...
I dont know... Regardless, I see maybe a couple summer classes or maybe winter classes... SOMETHING in my future so that I can get through credits faster and hopefully not have to pay for an entire semester in college, because its just too much. On top of that, textbooks. I mean really. Who thinks its ok to charge someone hundreds in dollars in books when they're not going to buy them back, and they have no use for them after the class is over... Its just such a pain.
So yep. Either monday or tuesday I'm going to look into opening up a CD either for me, or for chris and liv to split or something? It'd be a $500 5-year CD with 2.15% yearly interest rate... in the end I'd have about $556 in the account at the end of the year... Or maybe I'll open up an account that I won't allow myself to withdraw from, only deposit from time to time... We'll see... I'm mulling over a few options in my head right now...
Also I have a completely one track mind in that I will keep rethinking the same thing over and over and over and over again without making any progress at all and I can't stop until I fix things. Soooo don't be surprised if this one drives me crazy for awhile...
Also I'm worried I've been living my life through the tv screen which just isnt good enough for me... I want to get out and do things...
'Cause in my head there's a greyhound station. Where I set my thoughts, to far off destinations, so they may have a chance, of finding a place where they're far more suited than here. - Death Cab for Cutie
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Friday, July 29, 2011
Also...
There are some things I really feel the need to write down, but I'm not sure where to start and I'm almost positive they'll get all jumbled up as I go...
I worked four days in a row two weeks ago (I know, super delay), but the fourth day was just me and Francisco. Now by the time this Friday had rolled around, I had put up with so much second hand lung cancer and packing woes and just generally hating everything that I had mentally quit my job about 50 times over. So Friday morning, I drove to work, still generally hating everything, to find out that I was packing a job that's gonna take two days with Francisco, Josh, and Cobra (who looks like a dweebier version of Harry Potter and had his hand down his pants so he could scratch his ass. Legit.) Since the pack van can only seat three people, me and Franco hopped into my car while Josh and Cobra... You know what I'm just gonna call him Mike, which is what his ACTUAL name is... and drove to the job. So awhile back Franco figured out that I am reaaally not a morning person... and he jumped in my car chipper as ever to head off to work. He was acting like he had already had five cups of coffee.
I decided to ask him how on earth he can get up in the morning and be so happy about absolutely everything. He said that he sees each day as something wonderful. He wakes up in the morning and he's excited to go and pack because he's actually working, and if he's up and working then that's one less chance that someone who has no idea what they're doing is working (*cough* COBRA *cough*) And that he sees no reason in waking up miserable, because you never know what day's gonna be your last, and waking up miserable then complaining to other people, you're just gonna bring them down, and no one needs that first thing in the morning. He gets up in the morning cheerfully because he's been through some rough patches in his life, but he's past them now, so why shouldn't he be happy?
I feel like there's something everyone can take away from that.
And that day packing with Franco had to have been the best day I've had yet on this job, even though Josh and Mike had to go because there was another job that required their help... Me and Franco packed the majority of a massive house, the lady who lived there made us WONDERFUL coffee and tipped us, and I gotta say, me and Franco make a damn good team.
Ok so, next thing...
When I finally have time to myself in which I have no distractions I become rather introspective and it kinda freaks me out, not gonna lie. I've recently decided that I almost might be alright with the idea of having kids someday god knows when because they'd be too damn cute. I had this stunning revelation when I was sitting on the beach with adorable small children in bucket hats running around everywhere. And think about it for a minute, how adorable would a kid be who grew up on Daft Punk and Matt and Kim and The Little Prince and nights stargazing and Nova specials? I kinda want a chance to know that kid...
In other news, spending money freaks me out because I know how hard I worked to get that money, and textbooks and the like are so damn expensive, but I love getting packages in the mail... and I love gift giving... So this is tricky, having an amazon/valvestore/thinkgeek addiction...
And lying down on a hammock one day, I realized I probably have too much oxytocin in my system, because I legitimately just always want to cuddle EVERYTHING. I'm rather terrified of scaring people away though, because I realize that that's how most clingy people act, and I know clingy people kind of drive me insane so... >___>
My brain craves new information, and I can't wait to get back on campus, as much as I'll miss my home friends =[[[[ I just can't wait to take anatomy and learn about the human body and how incredible it is and just generally be a science dork and memorize everything.... But to help out my brain in the meantime, I've taken to watching Nova specials using Brent's netflix account, and reading magazines and the like, and what I've found is absolutely fascinating. A man who figured out how to use the extracellular matrix from pig intestines regularly thrown out from meat companies to regenerate lost muscle and tissue... up to the point where amputations may become a thing of the past. The extracellular matrix contains all the chemicals and nutrients necessary to stimulate stem cells to rush to the area and begin differentiating. Its way too cool.
And this morning I started off my day with a National Geographic special on stress. And stress will decrease your lifespan by shortening the telomeres at the end of your chromosomes, leaving you more susceptible to genetic mutations that can cause cancer and other diseases, as well as reducing your cell's ability to replicate correctly. However, researchers have found an enzyme that reverses this process, called telomerase. What stimulates telomerase production? Positive social interaction and compassion towards others. Compassion and laughter will increase your lifespan. Mind. Blown.
I think I had other things to add to this, but I currently forget them... I'll write more when I remember...
I've found the list of questions goes on. I think I might as well stop. Or I'll be questioning unanswerables till I drop. The scientist must lead a miserable life questioning gravity and infinite space. How much can one linear mind really know? Is there an end? Is there an end? Where are you? Is there an end? Is there an end? I'm leaving it up to the skies. - The Lonely Forest
I worked four days in a row two weeks ago (I know, super delay), but the fourth day was just me and Francisco. Now by the time this Friday had rolled around, I had put up with so much second hand lung cancer and packing woes and just generally hating everything that I had mentally quit my job about 50 times over. So Friday morning, I drove to work, still generally hating everything, to find out that I was packing a job that's gonna take two days with Francisco, Josh, and Cobra (who looks like a dweebier version of Harry Potter and had his hand down his pants so he could scratch his ass. Legit.) Since the pack van can only seat three people, me and Franco hopped into my car while Josh and Cobra... You know what I'm just gonna call him Mike, which is what his ACTUAL name is... and drove to the job. So awhile back Franco figured out that I am reaaally not a morning person... and he jumped in my car chipper as ever to head off to work. He was acting like he had already had five cups of coffee.
I decided to ask him how on earth he can get up in the morning and be so happy about absolutely everything. He said that he sees each day as something wonderful. He wakes up in the morning and he's excited to go and pack because he's actually working, and if he's up and working then that's one less chance that someone who has no idea what they're doing is working (*cough* COBRA *cough*) And that he sees no reason in waking up miserable, because you never know what day's gonna be your last, and waking up miserable then complaining to other people, you're just gonna bring them down, and no one needs that first thing in the morning. He gets up in the morning cheerfully because he's been through some rough patches in his life, but he's past them now, so why shouldn't he be happy?
I feel like there's something everyone can take away from that.
And that day packing with Franco had to have been the best day I've had yet on this job, even though Josh and Mike had to go because there was another job that required their help... Me and Franco packed the majority of a massive house, the lady who lived there made us WONDERFUL coffee and tipped us, and I gotta say, me and Franco make a damn good team.
Ok so, next thing...
When I finally have time to myself in which I have no distractions I become rather introspective and it kinda freaks me out, not gonna lie. I've recently decided that I almost might be alright with the idea of having kids someday god knows when because they'd be too damn cute. I had this stunning revelation when I was sitting on the beach with adorable small children in bucket hats running around everywhere. And think about it for a minute, how adorable would a kid be who grew up on Daft Punk and Matt and Kim and The Little Prince and nights stargazing and Nova specials? I kinda want a chance to know that kid...
In other news, spending money freaks me out because I know how hard I worked to get that money, and textbooks and the like are so damn expensive, but I love getting packages in the mail... and I love gift giving... So this is tricky, having an amazon/valvestore/thinkgeek addiction...
And lying down on a hammock one day, I realized I probably have too much oxytocin in my system, because I legitimately just always want to cuddle EVERYTHING. I'm rather terrified of scaring people away though, because I realize that that's how most clingy people act, and I know clingy people kind of drive me insane so... >___>
My brain craves new information, and I can't wait to get back on campus, as much as I'll miss my home friends =[[[[ I just can't wait to take anatomy and learn about the human body and how incredible it is and just generally be a science dork and memorize everything.... But to help out my brain in the meantime, I've taken to watching Nova specials using Brent's netflix account, and reading magazines and the like, and what I've found is absolutely fascinating. A man who figured out how to use the extracellular matrix from pig intestines regularly thrown out from meat companies to regenerate lost muscle and tissue... up to the point where amputations may become a thing of the past. The extracellular matrix contains all the chemicals and nutrients necessary to stimulate stem cells to rush to the area and begin differentiating. Its way too cool.
And this morning I started off my day with a National Geographic special on stress. And stress will decrease your lifespan by shortening the telomeres at the end of your chromosomes, leaving you more susceptible to genetic mutations that can cause cancer and other diseases, as well as reducing your cell's ability to replicate correctly. However, researchers have found an enzyme that reverses this process, called telomerase. What stimulates telomerase production? Positive social interaction and compassion towards others. Compassion and laughter will increase your lifespan. Mind. Blown.
I think I had other things to add to this, but I currently forget them... I'll write more when I remember...
I've found the list of questions goes on. I think I might as well stop. Or I'll be questioning unanswerables till I drop. The scientist must lead a miserable life questioning gravity and infinite space. How much can one linear mind really know? Is there an end? Is there an end? Where are you? Is there an end? Is there an end? I'm leaving it up to the skies. - The Lonely Forest
I PROMISE I DIDN'T FORGET MY CHALLENGE.
Iiiiii've just kinda been lazy about it... and there have definitely been days I've forgotten... i.e. July 10th, no photo due to Post-con Depression, a serious illness that strikes all con-goers... So... I think I'm just going to smush all the photos into one post, and see how it works out...
Also not sure on the dates for any of these, kinda guessed as I went along... soooo here are some random ones from July...
That wasn't so bad, was it?
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| So I bought this mask because EVERYONE AT WORK SMOKES. And I'm not getting paid for secondhand lung cancer. Also, haven't actually used it yet... I keep forgetting it... (July 12) |
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| Brent being wonderful and cheering me up after an AWFUL day of work with some Sherlock <3 (July 13) |
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| These people were really nice. They had artwork I liked. (July 14) |
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| Hippie van I want to steal... (July 16) |
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| Ready for a beach trip xD (Earlier July 16) |
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| Dad playing in the long grass with Ella xD (July 17) |
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| Trying to take a picture of how green my eyes look the more tan I get... Instead I kinda look like a cyborg... (July 19) |
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| Pretty area of the Rachel Carson wildlife refuge <3 (July 20) |
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| More Rachel Carson xD (July 20) |
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| THIS IS WHY I FEEL PASTEY IN THE WINTER. (July 21) |
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| MORTAL ENEMIES. Aka, dad kept throwing pirates booty at my face and SURROUNDED me in food. The seagulls swooped in for the kill >____> (July 22) |
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| PSYCH! (July 23) |
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| Little froggggggggg <3 (July 25) |
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| Its gonna be another long car ride to work... (July 26) |
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| I love buying people presents. This one's for Em, hopefully she doesn't know about my blog yet... otherwise... ooops >___> (July 29) |
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| I wanna redo a van like that into a hippie van. |
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| WHY DOES SOMEONE THINK ITS A GOOD IDEA FOR ME TO PACK ALL THEIR ELECTRONICS SO THE MOVERS CAN HOPEFULLY NOT DROP THEM?! |
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| I want that car. |
That wasn't so bad, was it?
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Ctcon July 9, 2011
My first time ever going to ConnectiCon, and it was WONDERFUL. A sci fi and anime convention in Hartford, Connecticut? Yes please <3
This video makes me tear up a bit... It was so cool standing in that room, she had EVERYONE on their feet. <3
Conventions are really cool in that, people actually recognized who I was cosplaying as......... It's an entire building filled with other nerds, dorks, and geeks, and its absolutely wonderful... Everyone gets your dorky references, its ok to be a zombie, you WILL see your favorite characters just walking around, everyone knows the pokemon theme song, some people ARE pokemon, others are trainers (Char and Catherine <3) and too many awesome things happened... I spent a wonderful day with wonderful people <3
Another really cool thing about conventions is its perfectly acceptable to run and hug someone you've never met before... aka what I did when Jamie pointed out a Mal standing in a crowd... He just smiled and took a picture with me, and it was pretty shweet... I'll post the photo as soon as Char uploads it <3
Work it harder make it better do it faster makes us stronger. More than ever hour after our work is never over. - Daft Punk
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| So I'm a bit of a dork, shutup xP Me cosplaying Kaylee from Firefly <3 |
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| Manda being a zombie... Damn terrifying one too... As I was walking up to her, she was spitting blood... |
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| Little Sister <3 |
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| Little girl cosplaying as a Hunter... she was adorable and scary at the same time... All the zombies everywhere made me kinda jumpy... I've been playing a bit too much Left for Dead... |
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| Really cool Chell, Ratman, and Aperture scientist... Their personality cores talked... <3 |
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| Daft. Punk. <3 |
Conventions are really cool in that, people actually recognized who I was cosplaying as......... It's an entire building filled with other nerds, dorks, and geeks, and its absolutely wonderful... Everyone gets your dorky references, its ok to be a zombie, you WILL see your favorite characters just walking around, everyone knows the pokemon theme song, some people ARE pokemon, others are trainers (Char and Catherine <3) and too many awesome things happened... I spent a wonderful day with wonderful people <3
Another really cool thing about conventions is its perfectly acceptable to run and hug someone you've never met before... aka what I did when Jamie pointed out a Mal standing in a crowd... He just smiled and took a picture with me, and it was pretty shweet... I'll post the photo as soon as Char uploads it <3
Work it harder make it better do it faster makes us stronger. More than ever hour after our work is never over. - Daft Punk
Watermelon and other silliness
Time to post a suuuuper attractive picture of myself....
Also I got to see Jazmyne this week with was wonderful <3 I miss her so much... And I got to see her horsies too!!! <3
I love spending time with Jazmyne so much <3
Just come on home, back to me. Come on home, back to me. - Born Without Bones
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| I was really tired and had a watermelon lollipop, alright? (July 6) |
Also I got to see Jazmyne this week with was wonderful <3 I miss her so much... And I got to see her horsies too!!! <3
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| Jazmyne's favorite spot of our walk <3 (July 7) |
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| Her horsie Nickle (July 7) |
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| Bein' silly in a mall xP (July 8) |
I love spending time with Jazmyne so much <3
Just come on home, back to me. Come on home, back to me. - Born Without Bones
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Vacationland
SO THIS IS LIKE THE THIRD TIME I'VE TRIED TO WRITE THIS POST GUYS BECAUSE BLOGGER'S BEING A TOOL.
I spent this weekend up in Maine with my family and the Shaners (my wonderful cousins <3) It was a great time, and sooooo relaxing... there's nothing better than waking up in the morning and heading off to the beach, then going to bed knowing you're gonna do it again the next day. It makes me so happy. <3
Me and Em and Livitz went snorkeling, it was pretty much the coolest. I definitely had like... a planet earth moment, and pretty much bio-dorked out THE WHOLE TIME. Em saw a flounder and went, JESS LOOKIT THIS DEAD FISH I FOUND. I then went to look at it and it swam at us. Insert me and Em screaming through our snorkels for a good 10 minutes while everyone watched on trying to figure out if we were drowning or something... xP
Oh my good god if i have to start this over one more time i'm just going to flip everything.
There's wisdom in knowing that we know nothing about ourselves. And we crash and burn. What's there to say if you can't say it? And if I can't explain it how do I expect you to change it? I thought you could read my mind, but I don't think you have the patience or the time.
Every time I try to I can't breathe. And when I write you it's 'cause I can't speak. I don't say what I want 'cause I want what you're not and I'm falling asleep. - Born Without Bones
I spent this weekend up in Maine with my family and the Shaners (my wonderful cousins <3) It was a great time, and sooooo relaxing... there's nothing better than waking up in the morning and heading off to the beach, then going to bed knowing you're gonna do it again the next day. It makes me so happy. <3
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| Just crossed the Piscataqua Bridge, officially in Vacationland <3 Best feeling ever. Livitz is kinda out of it xD (July 1) |
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| I would be the happiest person ever if every day felt like this. (July 1) |
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| STARFISH! <3 (July 1) |
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| Snail train! (July 1) |
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| There was faaaaaaar too much seaweed on the beach... it was nasty... The ocean washed it away by monday though. (July 1) |
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| This pretty much describes my family when they get together... Its pretty insane. All my aunts and uncles and parents and aunts' and uncles' siblings are all related or college bffls etc, so it is HILARIOUS when they get together. They really all just have too much fun <3 (July 2) |
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| My Uncle Bill, the original hipster, with his rock sculpture xD (July 3) |
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| My polaroid camera I got in Middle Earth (Arundel, ME) (July 3) |
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| Seriously though, every day like this = best life. (July 4) |
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| Best beach house name <3 (July 4) |
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| I'm so ready to kill blogger. Those sticky notes? That's everything from the previous post, so I could copy paste it into THIS post. (July 5) |
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| Chris, "Is that a potato?" This photo ended up here because the server rejected it... also its blurry because there's sunscreen on my phone lens... (July 4) |
Oh my good god if i have to start this over one more time i'm just going to flip everything.
There's wisdom in knowing that we know nothing about ourselves. And we crash and burn. What's there to say if you can't say it? And if I can't explain it how do I expect you to change it? I thought you could read my mind, but I don't think you have the patience or the time.
Every time I try to I can't breathe. And when I write you it's 'cause I can't speak. I don't say what I want 'cause I want what you're not and I'm falling asleep. - Born Without Bones
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