This is sort of a rant...

It bothers me how aggravating everything is.  Why do I need to waste my time on chemistry and calculus when I'm never going to use them ever?  Ok, maybe not ever, but I mean, I want to major in biology.  I understand needing a little basic chem, definitely organic chem, and some calc.  But seriously?

I'm at the point in calc where I'm pretty sure some mathematician just said, you know what, this is how it is. For no apparent reason, of course. Just because he could.  I have a friend who believes that math happens.  That equations just form themselves. That just... that's beyond me.  It wouldn't exist if some human didn't make up some ridiculous theorem to theoretically determine why something happens, usually in physics.  But even then things have gotten so convoluted that you're not even sure it works.

And then math teachers do those crazy things where they insist on showing you a dumbed down version of what you're going to be doing later, like it's going to help it make any sense, when the actual way of doing it happens to be easier too.  So that's pretty cool of them...

In the end, you lose sight of what you were trying to accomplish in the first place.  Which is frustrating because it doesn't just apply to math, its really easy to lose sight of where you're trying to get in just about anything.  It happens to the best of us.  Those are the times you need a self proclaimed internet exile, a good trip to the beach, the view from a mountain, a road trip, cloud watching, some form of ESCAPE from all the things that society deems important that have no real meaining in anyone's lives.

So today, in order to finish my english paper (which I've kind of given up on...  at this point I'm simply determined to pass freshman english, regardless of whether or not I get honors credit for it, aka get a b- or above), I wore my awesome new moosey pajamas that make me smile, and blared some Matt and Kim and Passion Pit.  They've never let me down before.  No matter how stressful or awful or annoying something is, you just need to keep looking for the things that make you smile.

On that note, I love the glow in the dark stars on my cieling in combination with my loft bed because they make the universe seem closer and that's a fantastic thing.

I've been losing lots of keys lately, I don't know what that means, but maybe I'll be better off with things that can't be locked at all. - Jack Johnson

Goodnight and sweet dreams!
<3 ~Jessie