Tangled Threads

My head is going a million miles a minute and reaching no solid conclusions about anything.  There are too many things I want to do and not enough time in the day to do them.  Also surprise, my course load is obscenely difficult, but we'll see how it goes.  I currently can't decide if its worth my while to try and take the hard, 2 semester sequence of organic chemistry, or the overly easy 1 semester organic chemistry.  The part that freaked me out was sitting in the 1 semester organic chemistry class I'm currently enrolled in, the professor said that if anyone is majoring in Molecular and Cell Biology or Physiology and Neurobiology that they need to be in the harder chemistry sequence.  My course load is already a bit overwhelming, so why on earth would I switch to the harder one?  Is it going to afford me more opportunities later on in life?  I don't know yet... I feel like either way I'm going to be kicking myself no matter which way I go on this one... I'll probably end up switching on the off chance that not switching limits my opportunities...

Regardless, I feel like I need a calming force in my life.  I can literally just sit somewhere while my head goes round and round in circles not ever reaching any sound conclusion and just fidget.  And I can't drop things until I figure out wtf I'm doing with them, so it honestly never ends until I get myself so worked up over nothing it seems like the world's ending.

Time for Intro to Undergrad Research...
 
'Cause I'm a man who hides from all that binds in a mess of fading lines.  And there's a tangled thread inside my head with nothing on either end. - Death Cab for Cutie

Transitions

After saying goodbye to Josh, I found this car. (August 21)

This picture defines their friendship xD (August 24)

(August 24)

It'll fit, right? (August 25)

UConn here I come. (August 26)

Uncovering galaxies. (August 27)

This is the coolest bubbler ever <3 (August 28)

Gorgeous campus after a hurricane. Also James and Erin because they're adorable <3 (August 29)

Green roof on the new classroom building! Its adorable and made my day. (August 30)

Its been a long time since I've had to walk great distances... my legs are on fire, but its almost like coming home again... I miss my home friends the size of universes, its ridiculous.  But back on campus I have the friends that I live with.  Its a bizarre transition.  I just want to be outside all the time on the rolling hills.  The wind here is something else... Its enough to take your breath away.

I don't think I'm making any logical sense... Time to head off to Animal Cognitive Behavior.

Bruises and scrapes, our life's mistakes are nothing but bad weather.  Hope you'd sneak in all of our friends just so we could leave together.  The books I won't read, the air that I'll breathe, the colors I've seen, I'll leave these pages in the trees. Today, leave good for great, leave sleep for late, leave good for great. - Matt and Kim

Activist Goals

- eat organic/local/vegetarian
- grow my own veggies
- enlighten others
- be more aware
- purchase a solar panel
- buy an electric car once available/financially feasible

I think its about time for a revolution.

So here's the forewarning to this entire post, I just watched Food Inc. on a recommendation from Charlie.  I swear she's trying to make an activist out of me...

Watching that documentary, all I can really say is our food system is fucked up.  And I honestly don't understand how people haven't thrown a fit over it yet... Cows getting e. coli because they're standing ankle deep in their own shit and eating corn when their bodies are made to process grass, which by the way, switching them to a grass diet for a day kills 80% of the e. coli infecting them.... Companies making it impossible to get sued meanwhile silencing farmers and the general populace by threatening them with taking away their jobs, never ending legal battles that take away their meager livelihoods, patents destroying any farmer's hopes of growing their own food because they can't keep their own seed and if their crops get contaminated by pollen from a Monsanto crop then they have to fight legal battles with Monsanto... Animals that never see the light of day because the meat companies think its unsanitary for them to be outside...

I just can't even handle this... there is NOTHING that is alright with any of this.  I think this has just sealed the deal on me becoming a preferred vegetarian, in that I'll eat local meat, but none of this large corporation nonsense... Someone needs to stop them... And I'm gonna do my damnedest to make a difference.

There's something wrong with the world when FOUR companies control all the meat produced in the entirety of the United States.  They have so much power that if any of the farmers try to fight them, they can just fire them like its nothing.  And to the company, it truly isn't anything.  But to the farmers, they've lost their entire livelihood.

I'm going to completely refuse to accept this anymore.  Its time to enact some change.

If you're interested in watching Food Inc, it can be found online for free probably illegally... here.

Apparently this is my 100th post... And here I was just popping onto blogger to say that:

Sometimes I'm just too happy to sleep.  Sometimes a day has been far too wonderful, and I don't want it to end just yet, so I'll stay up late to make it last that much longer...

Every day I'm shuffling. - LMFAO

This was a triumph. (August 17)

Happy 20th birthday, Jen. xD (August 19)

OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS CAR. (August 21)

Because i love us.

(august 7)

(august 10)

(august 10) Glow in the dark moose-octopus chris made

silly birds (august 11)

<3 (august 11)

the silly bird that started it all (august 11)

walking on clouds (august 11)

not quite napping (august 11)

<333 (august 11)

I'M JUST GONNA JUMP IN THE BOAT. (august 13)

WHY AM I PACKING HERE AND HOW DID I GET RAT POOP ON ME. (august 15)

a hippie and a hipster walk into a newbury comics... (august 17)

My Munchkin and I

courtesy of Manda <3

Also these.

Bubbles.

In which I take a billion self portraits for lack of a model, and hate them all.

go figure there's a curtain rod coming out of my forehead in one of the only photos i like...

=/

this makes me feel narcissistic that I took so many photos, yet extremely aggravated that I liked next to none of them...  I need faces other than my own to photograph.

It really is high time I tried to rediscover my creativity... Lately my photos have been me just trying to keep all my days straight... I want to do some people portraits.

EDIT: ASK AND YOU SHALL RECIEVE. *headdesk* I just wish Phil didn't start trying to roundabout-ly explain everything artsily at 2:30am....... Do people not understand that my brain turns off at 8pm?

Life is made up of the wonderful memories that you string along and trail behind you like a bunch of glowing lights.

Note to self...

Don't ever guilt trip anyone for anything ever.  If you want something and someone says no, just get over yourself and find a way to deal.  Because being on the receiving end of a guilt trip sucks.

It might not be the right time.  I might not be the right one. But there's something about us I want to say 'cause there's something between us anyway.  I might not be the right one.  It might not be the right time.  But there's something about us I've got to do, some kind of secret I will share with you.  I need you more than anything in my life.  I want you more than anything in my life.  I'll miss you more than anyone in my life.  I love you more than anyone in my life. - Daft Punk

Touche shuffle, touche.  I can't ever say no to that song.  Its just so short and jazzy and perfect, and the way his voice trails off at the end, genius.  Pure musical genius.

Dale Chihuly is inspiration.

Today I saw the Dale Chihuly exhibit at the Museum of Fine Arts in Boston, and it was absolutely incredible.  Words cannot describe how lovely his glass artwork is.  I loved the looks of awe on absolutely EVERYONE's faces.  Definitely made me smile.  Also an entire ceiling filled with glass with light shining through it.  I want one.

I don't want to set the world on fire, I just want to start a flame in your heart. - The Inkspots